9 Months Later, Part Two

Ok, so I'm back...

June 2008

• I returned to Madison, Alabama to prepare for a short excursion to Russia for the sake of participating in the annual bible camps.
• I sold a ton of crap and simplified my work flow.
• Shot my second ever music video for a band called Stars Below.
  

July 2008

• Spending about 3 weeks in Russia, I regained my focus and confirmed what The Lord had in store next.
• I worked my butt off and once again had to leave the one place where I feel at peace.

August 2008

• After visiting my parents for a week, I drove back up to Springfield, MO and began preparation for the next two years of Bible College.
• Got a flat across from the campus.
• Convinced my friend Joey Foucha to move up and split rent.
  
• Got a job cleaning windows.
  
• Gave in and downloaded the new leaked album from Underoath...I'm sorry--but it'll amazing.

Well, that just about does it for now. I doubt I'll really continue with much of a personal journal but more so about things that interest me and cross my path of existence. Ok. I'm done for now. I don't know what's going on with me right now. But I'm happier than I've ever been yet more uncertain and puzzled than ever before. I miss parts of the past. Rejoice over the present. Yet, I am increasingly perplexed by the future.

9 months later...

No I didn't have a child or anything...But after nine months of procrastinating--I decided to press the little button and write something in the pretty text box. yay! Ok so, here's the run down of major events since November.

december/january

• i went to springfield, mo to visit for new years
• i realized i hate life outside russia
• i went back to tuscaloosa because im retarded

april 2008

• i remembered how much i hate it in alabama.
• i dropped out of school
• i left and went to visit springfield for a few weeks
• i decided it was the best place i could be at outside of the mission field and still be in training to return
• i returned to my hometown to prep for the move.

may

• i moved to springfield and started taking classes at central bible college that summer
• i started mentoring under chuck eastman.
• i made some new friends and grew closer to some old ones

im hungry, ill fill in the rest later...

Wireless Harlem Initiative

This is a new new non-profit organization aiming to start a viral concept of effective and efficient free ad hoc wifi. It consist of the cooperation of private business and individuals with cheap, portable, small, and easy to setup equipment with a leech-like mirroring technology. pimpest thing ever! no brand new idea of course, but it seems to be the first group that is taking theory into practice and covering all the glitches that has held it back in the past. I predict a cheap and vastly available internet in almost every corner of the globe within the next ten years. then a completely open and free internet to emerge and choke-out the commercial dominance within the next 20 years.

Wireless Harlem Initiative

I'd rather starve

Since I've been back in the US, I've come to a realization and decision as a result.

The Dog, The House, The Yard, The TiVo, The Car, The Desk, The Tie, Weekend, The Pool, The Jones. I'll never do that. I'll never be that. I would rather be a homeless old fart. At least I would have my dreams. Even the lowest of the classes have their dreams and their hopes. Those caught in The American Dream only have their wants and their haves.

After this upcoming Spring semester, I'm dropping out of school to pursue the only thing I know how to do: Create. I believe that it is the only thing I was made to do and to waste that gift being what others want, would only desecrate my purpose in life. I'm not sure if I'll return eventually to finish my degree, but I do know that whatever I do, I will do what I feel the Lord is leading me to do. Not my family, my fears, my wants, nor my assumptions will ever dictate what I do with the life I've been given.

So if the day comes that I walk the street and live wherever I am that night, don't pity me. Don't mock me or look down on me. Don't help me or comfort me. For it is you that I pity. It is you that I mock. I am free, I am an artist, a photograher, a designer. I am someone that has gone after my dreams and reached them--even if that has lead me to poverty. I will live in poverty and in happiness. Because both are two very different things.

And if the day comes that you see my name scroll across a theater screen or a television box. Don't envy me because of my wealth, or fame, or haves. Envy me because I followed the path that was set before me by my Heavenly Father instead of building a house along the road. I kept on that journey and did not care where it took me. And because of that I am happy.

On a side note, I love pumpkin pie.

late night

ok, so i know i haven't posted in a while....a long while. and i also know that nobody really cares either. but anywho, i just got settled into the dusseldorf airport here and all, and im already terrible bored. my flight isn't until 07:00 tomorrow and i have to stay awake in order to fight jet-lag. the next 36 hours will be spent either in an airport or plane...fun =( . anywho, yea--maybe ill write more later. i just got the sudden inspiration to re-watch the first season of the office...tootles.

stephen